Can't forget Erika Lizette

I awoke during the darkest hour and could not fall back asleep

Wandering in distant memories of nights well spent now seem more unreal than ever.

I feel the cold run up and down my skin and I am heavy hearted

You are fading.

I hesitatingly try to recapture your bold image

by outlining only what matters most to me

your disappearance has caused much anxiety

never before have I felt such disappointment

sadness falls upon me for I have come to the realization

that I will never come close to being your inspiration

I will never come close to giving you that motivation

I wanted to be your sole connection with the world

The very cure for your sporadic dissatisfaction and depression.

In every right way I felt that you were perfect for me

but all signs and fingers point in the direction that you are wrong

This unfair contradiction pains my heart

I seek comfort in your eyes and touch

but I grow weary from you lack of emotion

and unwillingness to give yourself entirely to me

I cannot just walk away blindly into the night

I have spent my heart and soul for you

Could it be that this was all for nothing? No lessons were learned

I cannot walk away knowing my efforts went unnoticed

Efforts I know others would have immediately appreciated

But you can’t even see me.  You don’t know I am there.

It’s far too late to fix anything now, so why do I still care?